The spirituality of enslavement

One of the first dominant men I came across in r/l was a spiritual man. He used to tell me alot of things, most of which I didn't really understand at the time. One of the things he said to me was this:

'Open your eyes and look at the people walking by. If you look close enough you will see that some of them walk with 'angel steps'. When you finish your journey you will walk with angel steps'.

I remember looking up into his eyes, with a slightly confused look on my face (not unusual), thinking to myself 'what the hell are you talking about?' (I didn't say this at the time, of course, but I think if I had he would have laughed. I think now, perhaps, I wouldn't need to say it, I think now I know what he meant).

The 'journey' is that of self discovery, the search inside your soul for the person you really are (your self). Angel steps means the inner peace you achieve through accepting that self. Many people achieve this outside of slavery. Some do it through spirituality. My own search began before I discovered Master/slave, before I met Tanos and before I met the spiritual man.

I guess the point i am trying to make is this: Although I can see and understand how some people see enslavement as a series of 'battles' (there is almost always conflict where there are changes to be made) to me the enemy is not Tanos. He may be the one who takes me to the 'scary places' but he is also the one who guides me through them, protects me when I am scared and shares my joys whenever I make progress. The enemy is not Tanos and my battles are not with slavery. The enemy is myself - my pre-conceptions, learned behaviours and responses. All the systems I use to hide myself.
To me Tanos is my guardian and slavery sets me free.

Sometimes I walk with angel steps...

lili (June 2000)