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Thoughts on piercings and other stuff...
Posted by lili on Mon 28 Jun 04, 8:43 AM
Well - i'm now the proud bearer of 3 new piercings (2
inner labia and 1 vertical clit hood) and 10 days on
i'm pleased to say they are healing very nicely - infact
so nicely that i've started cycling again this weekend
(which is pretty good going if i do say so myself)!
i have to say that doing those piercings has to rank up
there as "one of the most erotic things i've ever done
to myself so far" (not one of the most erotic things
i've ever had done TO me i hasten to add )
It also gave me a few things to think about.
As far as S/m goes i struggle with calling myself a
masochist (since 99.9% of the pain i enjoy has to be
delivered in a D/s context for it to transform into the
wonderfully freeing, hedonistic experience it so often
So it always seems somehow not quite right for me to
rank myself as a masochist (i certainly don't consider
myself in the same league as others i've seen who enjoy
However, if i am brutally honest with myself there are
aspects of pain (particularly pain endurance) which i
find myself drawn to for more obscure reasons.
As far as psychology goes i'd say i'm as well adjusted
as a submissive can get. i'm certainly more than cabable
of analysing and
controlling (or at the very least understanding) my
drives, and motivations.
i'm certainly not crazy (although i'm sure there would
be plenty of people in "vanilladom" who may disagree -
whatever -) i still think that there is something
fascinating about seeing a needle pass through flesh not
least from a purely aesthetic point of view.
Infact, of the few things i would consider inflicting on
another woman aesthetics, rather than domination, would
be my motivation (both needles and rope bondage are good
examples of this).
So, i've come to the conclusion that as far as
piercing *me* goes (irregardless of whether its permanent
or temporary) endurance is my biggest motivator -
without a doubt there is something extremely intimate,
(almost spiritual) about demonstrating the
strength of will to overcome intense physical sensation.
i can certainly empathise with the elation those
enduring some forms of physical "rites of passage" must
That's all for now.....
Edited Wed 26 Dec 07, 1:12 PM by lili